January 2009
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Shell Shock, Gender Pronouns, and Pussy Lips
Gadz. Yesterday was exhausting. It’s a highly dramatic analogy, but it felt like we were all skipping aboot on a field of green grass and daises (doesn’t everyone feel that way about work?) and then, next thing everyone knew, we’re lined up against a wall and higher management takes aim. Bullets are whizzing by, it’s a whirlwind, friends are getting hit and collapsing....
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Economic Depression and HB225 Update
Co-workers are being fired left and right. The depression is really hitting us and it became real today when I went to the break room to make a sandwich and Moo was in tears. She had just been fired. No warning (aside from knowing that we’re in a depression). She just came in and, next thing she knows, she doesn’t have a job. An entire web of people were fired today. Some on my...
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Chest Exam & Whining Aboot Utah Politics
My chest exam went well this morning! Due to my concern that I’d potentially found a lump when I uncomfortably self-examined last week, I made an appointment with the closest place I could that would get me in the fastest; the primary objective being: get exam ASAP! I would’ve felt more comfortable waiting to see my for-sure trans-aware/friendly doctor, but the urgency compelled me to...
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Non-Tranny Transitioning & Libidinousness
Last week I met a friend for lunch who mentioned that her sister went through a “natural transition” due to something called polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS), which I’d never heard of before. Apparently it’s an endocrine disorder that can naturally occur in some biological women. According to Wikipedia, common symptoms of PCOS include: * Oligomenorrhea, amenorrhea —...
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Photo Documentation: 45 Days & Common Ground
Earlier today I attended a very rainy rally in support of the Common Ground Initiative (which are a series of 6 bills - more info here!) that stem from statements the LDS Church made during and after California’s Proposition 8 campaign like “we’re not anti-gay” and “the Church does not object to rights for same-sex couples.” Oh, and also, Elder L. Whitney Clayton even...
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Self-Injection! Chest Exam! Stuff!
I was successful at doing my own injection last night! That whole hand shaking fiasco didn’t kick in, fortunately, and I was able to perforate myself and slowly slide that evil, long needle in; felt it go through various layers of manly thigh meat. I have evolved from my diapers of shaking and whimpering to my underroo’s of self-injection. It probably isn’t as big of a feat as...
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Injection Day!! + Utah Air n' Binding
THE AIR. Last night when I attempted to bicycle home, I literally couldn’t. It felt like there were a million daggers stabbing my lungs and a constant feeling of bile creeping up my esophagus. My eye balls were burning, trying to see through the fog of inversion. Gulping down the air was difficult and I could taste some kind of gasoline’ish film in my throat. In my 9 years of bicycle...
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Inauguration Day - Woo!
Ding dong the witch is dead! Which old Witch? The Wicked Witch! Today is an inspiring, refreshing day! Obama being our next President is actually a reality, finally, even though he’s taking office amid a dismal economic depression and with the U.S. still immersed in two wars. In 2000, nine years ago, I had just turned 18. I remember feeling so enthusiastic and giddy to vote for the first...
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Viddy Documentation: 39 Days
I had my prescription refilled yesterday. Gadz that stuff is expensive, even with my insurance covering a small percentage of it. I’m prescribed 200mg at a time, which lasts me two injections. My throbbing man muscles will be absorbing 100mg of it this Thursday, then the remaining 100mg two weeks after that. I will then make an appointment with my hormone doctor to get a check up, ask...
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Anti-Trans Bill: HB 225 !
Oh no he didn’t! There existed a solid and comfortable little land; one of mountains and green hills, coffee shops and bicycles. But, by some curious chance one morning in the quiet of this world, when there was less noise and more green and the trannies n’ friends were still numerous and prosperous (I may be exaggerating just a little here), a great dark cloud emerged and a thunder roared...
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Blogging: Being Open & The Inquisition
The fact that I have a blog is very bewildering to me. I’ve never had any urge, whatsoever, to use an online journal to share anything private about my life. Maybe to share things I’m interested in comically or politically, but, about me? No way, no how. The me I’ve known my entire life has been fiercely private about, well, me. Especially this. This being a collection of puzzle...
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Sanctuary + Chest Hair n' Acne!
I feel so relaxed right now. I just got home from volunteering for hours out at the Ching Farm Animal Rescue & Sanctuary with a few friends, which is located in Herriman, Utah - about a 20 minute drive from downtown Salt Lake City. It’s more exhausting than it should be. I know that feeling this way is entirely a byproduct of being pampered city folk. I whimpered so much lifting things...
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3rd Injection + 'stache action
Injection Day went very well. It was definitely the tranny bonanza I’d hyped it up to be. The support group was good. It didn’t feel like there was enough time and it’s only my second time going, but so far it’s really comforting and nice to just be around others who are going through different, yet very similar, experiences. It feels safe, reassuring, helpful. Immediately...
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Day 29: Injection Day + Potential Voice Cracking
Oh boy! So either I’m getting a cold OR my voice has started to crack. I’m err’ing on the latter, seeing as I have no other cold symptoms (so far - maybe it IS a cold. I’ll find out by tonight!). Maybe I’m finally growing up and becoming a big boy! Go speed puberty go!! Maybe I’ll go hit the town trying to woo the ladies with my acne and soothing, handsome man...
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Pap Horrors + T Concerns
As I mentioned in my first post - and the entire reason it’s taken me so long to start testosterone hormone therapy - I’m a bit of a prematurely aged safety nut. I’ve never had alcohol. I’ve never done a drug. I’m vegan. I bicycle as my main form of transportation year-round. I try to work out every day. I drink soda pop, which I’ve gradually reduced my...
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Frakking Gender!
That gender topic sure does come up a lot, especially now that I’m transitioning. In general peeps around me seem to be very perplexed by why I’d want to “transition”, but have no desire to identify as a “male” (I’m indifferent when it comes to whatever pronouns or gender reference someone uses towards me). For me, as I briefly explained in my first post,...
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Binding + Smoke Ban in Utah
New Years Eve. I remember the first time I went out to a New Years Eve party and being completely caught off-guard when 12:00 rolled around and suddenly corks were flying, alcohol was spraying, and drunk lips were being hurdled towards my face. Last year I was very successful at midnight and, when 11:58 rolled along, I conveniently inched away towards the bathroom, shut myself inside, and when I...