Oh.my.gawd. I turned completely red watching this.
About two weeks ago a friend of mine at City Weekly referred Marty Foy to me for an interview in regards to Transgender Awareness Month. Feeling compelled to do my small part, I agreed to it - but instead of doing the interview somewhere with just Marty and I, I requested we do it at the Utah Pride Center so he could also interview some other trans-identified people or show the little happy Center in the background or somethun'.
Honestly, in my stage fright ridden little world I hoped I would appear for 1.4 seconds and someone else for 3.4 seconds and another for 6.7 and so on and so forth. I'd be a blurb. Get in, get out. Part done, stage fright averted. But alas, that's not how reality panned out.
Reality rarely pans out the way my noggin predicts it should.
As my awkward and rare viddy documentations have proven, there's something about a camera 2" from my face that instantly liquefies my mind and transforms me into a terrified, monotone robot. No humor. Only terror. Absolute, sheer sweat and redness.
Oh the woe of trying to be an out-and-proud tranny and an increasingly inquisitive media. It's a good thing, actually. I just like to complain. Which, I'm sure, comes as a complete surprise given the title of this blog.
At one point Marty asks, "How do you define yourself as a trans person?", and in my mind I answered, "Well, as a trans guy or just tranny! And I know some people may think tranny is a derogatory term, but I think it's cute and endearing and kinda sounds like a teddy bear.", -uh, not a good answer, so out loud my lips forced out a, "Well, transgender, to my understanding is an umbrella term for people who are... and I would identify as transsexual ... " instead.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
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8 comments:
Anxiety really sucks, lol. I doubt you'll find anyone who doesn't get nervous when it comes to interviewing or speaking publicly.
You did great! Not even kidding, you were concise and to the point and answered his questions honestly and candidly. Proud of you.
I don't know what you're talking about Mel, you did a fantastic job. I'm still cringing from the last time I had to speak in front of people. I didn't do much talking...more silent perspiration and a furrowed brow.
You did fine. I'm never going to give up on helping you make a doc. It needs to exist, dammit!
GaySLC: Public speaking terror DOES suck.
Manna: Is there a video documenting your public speaking incident? If so, I wish to see it. THEN I'll feel better. ;]
Douchebag: Only if we can throw your sister into it, too!
i liked it.
I agree with Douchbaguette!!!
I am really very serious too. I really think you are a very good tranny face(HEHE)...
I really actually think you making a documentary would be a very helpful thing to the transgender community. I really honestly do.
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